Wall of glass
fortress of invisibility
I can see the beauty
set before me
but cannot reach out to grasp
it mocks me
I long for release
But struggle for control, behind this cruel exterior

Guilty Memories

A lovely death
cries forgiveness
and tears of regret
for stealing hearts
enslaving souls
and pointing fingers
for breaking promises
Grieving the past
is a mental warrior
with an angel heart
and a devil mind

Cornered

He devours me again
I'm trapped once more
There's nowhere to run
I've no way to hide
My pulse quickens
my mind races
fear takes over
What can I do?
Cornered again

The Game

I sit here silent. Life isn't worth it, I think I'll end it. Take this knife, sitck it deep inside, now you see the inner me. Don't worry, I'm fine, this is how I've got to be. What did you expect of me, with paper cut comaroderie? Why won't I die? I've tried in vain. Well...so much for suicide, bout we give you a try? Please..do run, it's oh so fun. It gives your blood an erotic taste. I hunt you down, I cut you up. I love the screams, can't get enough. Well.....now it's silent, I guess you're dead. But I can't stop, I want some more. There's some scissors...oh look your sister. She really has no fucking clue what I will do. She looks at you...she sees me too. She starts to run...the chase is on. I smell her fear, and it's all too clear......Oh she tripped! Well...too bad. The screams and blood...they hypnotize me, and then she's gone...I walk away. I need some rest. You know I'm not the one to blame. I just play the game.

Void

It's hate I'm feeling
It's vile and cold
I feel heartless
empty inside
Once there was heart
now there is ice.

Tormenting

Eyes so deep,
draw me in,
cann't tear me away.
They heal my soul,
enslave my being,
capture me whole

Tyler Reynolds

He is dark, decieving
dressed in black
spikes on his neck
spikes in his hair
Leather and steal
flesh and blood

Puppet Master

Control me, console me;
desecrate me, penetrate me;
Contain me, sustain me;
make me, break me.
I don't know who I am
if not yours.
I don't know where to go
without your lead.
Tell me who I am,
tell me where to stand.
Make me who;
break my soul,
take control.
I am just a toy;
make me walk,
make me talk.
I am only alive,
when you pull my strings.

No More

Bleeding for you
denying the pain
Decieving for you
trying in vain
But you don't see me
and you can't hear me
Screaming at you
lost in my shame
Crying for you
I wish this would stop
Dying for you
and end to this game.

Missed Chances

I'm lost in the darkness
and hoping for a sign of light
the sun no longer shines
since you took that light with you
My heart is aching maybe even breaking
and how I miss your smile
Now how do I tell you
the words I meant to say
How could I have known I would miss the chance
Miss the oportunity to tell you
You were my best friend


(RIP Casey 11-3-03)
She was taken from us too soon

Taken Over

You know my thoughts
It's like you've read me
A well worn book upon your shelf
You're on my mind and in my blood
My heart beats for you alone
You've weaved your web and drawn me in
You stole my soul don't let it end

A Losing Battle

Falling...
And I can't get a grip
Slipping...
The path is icy here
Losing...
This battle that I fight
Screaming...
But no one seems to hear
Dreaming...
But nothing's been too clear
Breaking...
I haven't the will to stand
Holding...
Back with all my tears
Running...
Tormented by my fears
Draining...
I'm losing all I have
Dying...
It will all be over soon

Drowning

I'm standing here
Nothing seems to go just right
It's raining now
I'm running out of reasons to fight
I hear them calling
But look the other way
It doesn't matter now
At least I can pretend
But I can't stop the rain.

Lost

I'm standing in the rain
feeling it wash over my face
I'm feeling kinda wasted
and also kinda low
I'm waiting for approval
I'm waiting for the glow
I don't know where I'm going
This never felt like home
I sit and think for hours
The release is all I seek
I never seem to find it
The loss is neverending

Blind Deaf Mute

Fountains of light
Shimmer in the dark
Voices of love
whisper against the silence
Unknown roads
lead to undreamed dreams
Unkept secrets
Soil the innocence
Lost in the shadows
No hope for salvation
Walking blind
No sound at all
embittered existence

Unable

Angel eyes
in the Devil's moon
turn to me
and plead their case
Speaking of love
whispering of passion
I long to end that torture
quiet the fears
I don't have the power
I can't break these bonds

Immortal Lover

I reach for you
your skin so cold
You let me break you
I kiss your lips so tender
As you bleed for me
I die for you
You hold me close
No....don't let me go!
I live for you
When you die for me

Midnight Lover

A dreamless whisper
an unspoken caress
with untouchable eyes
His tender kisses paralyze
I'm lost in him
Lost without him
He leaves me breathless, sated,
yet still hungry always.

What Lies Within

Why fix what isn't broken?
My love is a given token, baby
These ties that bind you to me
Have cut so cleanly
That's what it's all about my dear
That's what you know of me
Time takes love away from us
But never seems to let us down from it
Control in every sense of it.

Scars

Far away a lullaby
lost soul and sacrifice
mercy hear the cry
of a lover's tragedy
a midnight of sin
and empty promise

Emptiness

It's dark and I can't my way
No light to guide me
Feelings I can't escape
Still lost in his soft embrace
Still trapped in his gentle eyes
Alone is how you'll find me
Scared is how you'll leave me

Identity

Empty spaces, empty faces
I'm lost in the void
Clawing to the surface of existance
Searching for my own voice
Not to be one of the empty
Struggling for completeness

The Fairie Tale

A tortured princess in her own mind
A vampyre prince in a cell
Brought together by twisted Fate
the mistress of torment
She's drawn to him
as he to her
two lost souls
as the mistress holds salvation in her grasp.

Fever

Melted fire
burning ice
Savior keep me!
Ghost eyes mirror
nails like knives
Sick smiles of a madman
kills laughter and innocence
Don't let it take me
screaming in pain
I'm too weak to fight
As it drives me insane

Sad Smile

Voices stare
eyes lie
shine forever
A pale spark
in bright darkness
Hollow rumors
shadowed satisfaction
A nervous lover
of invisible beauty
and broken desires
A glimmer of hope
far from reach
the dreams you ache for
That's your fate

Nightmare Moon

Bleeds Sliver
Screams silence
No escape
temptation in the sky
cursed heaven
Light in the dark
full and bright
pulls you in
with hidden lies

Love

Wrap me in your secrets
Keep me safe inside your addiction
Poison my dreams with your love
Collect my tears in your silver moon
Kiss my fears away
Whisper truth, shout wanting
Push me from Insanity

Raw

Bleeding and broken my body lies,
severed and slashed by your watchful eyes.
My tears of blood that fed your greed,
flow unseen, escaping from your hunger glare.
Ripped and torn inside my flesh,
dread thoughts begin to multiply.
Twisted and knotted the fire burns,
searing my skin, enhancing the wound.
The embers fade, my body chills,
you smile in your blood lust,
as a single tear slides from your icy gaze.
You whisper soft "Good-night dark love,
tonight you're fortune's fate".

Beaten

He hit her,
but spoke of love.
Bruised the flesh,
this thief of time.
He stole her life,
and scarred her soul.
With bitter blood upon her lips,
she swallows tainted lies,
a sweet poison to her heart.